17: You’ve worked so hard to get past the tough times but when you are having a bad day now how do you deal?
Demi Lovato: I feel it, rather then suppressing it. Just recently, I had one thought, This guy was flipping me off in traffic, my heads pounding. I don’t feel good. But its out of my control. It’s nothing I should jeopardize my health for. I put myself first now.
17:Were there people around you who were trying to help you but were actually hurting you?
DL:I don’t think anybody enabled me–people didn’t realize how serious the problem was. Nobody saw how ugly it got, because I kept it such a secret. Its easy to hide, its very easy to manipulate people.
17:Who was there for you?
DL:There are two people who No matter how many times we fight, we will always be in each others’ lives, “Miley and I are very strong-headed, so when we fight, it’s brutal and we’re like, ‘We’re never going to be friends again!’ Then two days later, we’re like, ‘I love you and I miss you!'” Selena and I never fight “She’s not a confrontational person at all. Both of them will never leave my life no matter what happens, because we’ve been through so much together.
17:Did anyone surprise you with there support?
DL:Were not super close “We’re not super-close, but Taylor Swift tweeted ‘Pray for Demi,’ which I thought was really awesome of her. And Kim Kardashian, the busiest woman on the planet took time to call me.” We met at the white house Corespondents dinner and I was like “Omg I love your makeup” She’s like “I love your’s” And we became best friends. Then I went to treatment, and she was there for me when not many people were. I can count on my finger how many people were. After I got out of treatment. I turned on my on my phone and there were only four text messages—-I was like wow that shows who really was my friend and who was just hanging out with me because I would party with them.
17:Do you still go out?
DL:I’m 19! you can’t tell me to never go out again I used to hang out with people who were negative influences. Now I hang out with people who are sober, healthy and positive. That’s what people need to do and surround themselves with. You are who your friends are Now if I want to socialize I, I’ll go out and sip a red bull.
17: What do you think would have happened if you wouldn’t have gone into treatment?
DL: I don’t know. I’ve been hospitalized for cutting too far, and it’s the scariest thing knowing that you could’ve gone just a little bit farther and died (side-eyeing you right now dianna)
17: So many girls look up to you has the meaning of role model changed to you?
DL: Before I was pretending to be this role model that I new I wasn’t and that was the hardest thing for me because at the time I was just like I want to be a singer and a actress. I don’t want to be a role model. Now I am proud to be a role model I am so open with everything. I’m not doing anything scandolous.
17: How do you keep up with your self-esteem?
DL: There are times were I want to wear sweatpants and I’m just, Screw it, I don’t want to dress today! But I know that most of it is my mind telling me that I’m ugly or that I’m not thin enough or not good enough, and I remind myself. Thats the voice that got you in trouble. Remember that you’re beautifully and carefully made this way for a reason. I’m not suppose to be stick thin. Maybe I could use a little toning up in some places, but is it going to turn me back into having an eating disorder? No. I worked way to hard on getting healthy.
17: What do you love most about yourself?
DL: My confidence. To be able to look somebody in the eyes and say,”I do’t care if you think my arms are chubby or whatever I am the way I am”
17: What do you like best about your body?
DL: My butt its gotten big—and awesome!
17: You and Joe Jonas have been recentally tweeting each other. Do you think it is possible to be friends with your exes?
DL: Yeah definitively. The key is not to hate your ex. Easier said then done. but don’t let the toxicity build up in your system, because the negative just sits in your body and soul.
17: What are you looking forward to this year?
DL: I think it would be cool to go hiking in every country I would visit on tour. This tour feels more special. I’m more confident, happy, and healthy and I think it shows in my performance, which makes each day more rewarding and fun. I hope I stay as happy and healthy as I am today.
17: What do you think you have learned about yourself this past year?
DL: That I am worthy enough, beautiful enough, and I don’t need anything else, including a guy, to feel whole. I don’t need anyone but myself. Its a pretty good revelation!