In March, Demi Lovato celebrated six years of sobriety, an experience that she’s been incredibly open about with the general public. “So grateful for another year of joy, health and happiness,” she wrote at the time. “It is possible.”
Now, in a new song, Lovato sings about breaking sobriety. Although the singer has not confirmed whether she’s singing about herself, many have speculated that the song is about a personal relapse.
In a new song released Thursday called “Sober,” Lovato poignantly sings about reaching a breaking point.
“I got no excuses for all of these goodbyes/ Call me when it’s over ‘cus I’m dying inside,” Lovato sings. “Wake me when the shakes are gone and the cold sweats disappear/ Call me when it’s over and myself has reappeared/ I don’t know why, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know why/ I do it every, every, every time/ It’s only when I’m lonely/ Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don’t wanna fight.”
She also addresses fans in the song: “I’m sorry for the fans I lost/ Who watched me fall again/ I wanna be a role model/ But I’m only human.”
In the lyrics at the end of the song, Lovato promises to get help and apologizes.